Boy, it feels good to be back.
My dear friends,
it’s been a lil bit.
This fall, I had, admittedly, been pretty flakey with this blog. But for good reason. This passion project of mine turned into a m a j o r source of stress and anxiety for me.
It was no longer fun and therapeutic to write posts. The stress of my self-proposed deadlines would set in each day, and I’d pile on loads of blog work to my already long to-do list.
And we all know what happens when we have long to-do lists. We sit on the couch and drink wine instead.
But I knew it was time to take a step back. This blog truly is my passion, my escape.
I love my little corner of the internet so boundlessly, I never want it to become a stressor in my life (I have enough already – thank you).
And so I decided that November and December, I’d take a break. I’d breathe, I’d rest, I’d give myself some slack.
I did just that.
I put away my laptop, my DSLR, my pile of notebooks. I shoo’ed away any thoughts of blog deadlines and newsletters. And it felt good.
I was able to focus on school (and finish my first FULL year of college – and with honors, baby!). I spent more time with my loved ones and my friends.
It really was relaxing.
And I stayed true. I refrained from posting on Instagram, barely posted on the blog, and tried my best to not stress about my depleting follower count or site traffic.
But what I’ve realized now, is that while I was certainly relaxed, I didn’t feel like myself. I had immense anxiety for the first time in a long time. I got so lazy, since I didn’t have any blog work to do to fill my days. And I missed this, oh so much.
And so here I am,
fresh from a two month sabbatical, and more (mentally) ready than ever to get back into the swing of things here on Love, Laney.
You may notice, my website is still a bit, um, broken (don’t bother going to my homepage). But, I’m teaching myself to be okay with imperfection, and to show up anyway, despite the growing list of things I need to update, rebrand, and redesign.
So once again, I’m asking you to bear with me. Growth is slow, but I’m trying to keep it graceful.
Talk real soon,